Do I FEAR God?

Ok. God is not dependent on us at all. 

I fear something. Maybe even everything but, God. 

I remind myself always of who God is and what his love is. 

I become more optimistic- but do I become so optimistic that I lie to myself?  

Who is God in my life?

What is my purpose?

I feel that I have become so scared of what God has planned and willed for my life?

Am I trying to flee from the promises?

- while in time, I still believe in the promises and faithfulness of God. 

What am I holding onto? 

What truly motivates me? I feel I have lost motivation.

Am I just becoming distant from God?

Am I becoming distant from the truth? 

We are the light and we grow through life experiences.

But, what am I to grow in right now?

What am I depending on OR am I just trying to be independent?!  

I feel that I keep confusing myself. 

What am I setting my heart on?

Am I trying to do everything on my own? I do not feel that I am. 

What am I daily surrendering to?

“Create in me a clean heart oh God,

Renew a right spirit within me

-and restore unto me the joy of your salvation.”

Psalms 51:10-12. 

(This is a verse that I constantly meditate on or somehow comes to mind all the time. Blah.)

Have I lost the joy of The Lord within me? 

It's like my life analogy. Fill my cup to overflowing.

Am I just down to the bottom?

And am not allowing my cup to be filled??  

Have I filled my cup with evil?

With fear of so many things rather than the holy righteous one- Our Savior? 

I so want to follow my passion and maybe I have lost my direction.

Have I lost my "in tune with God" sense? 

If that's my passion why do I feel like I don't want to help?

Does Satan have a foothold on my life?

How am I to live?

How am I to be led by the spirit?

Have I lost all trust?

Have I allowed distractions? 

How am I to figure out my life?

Yes I know this answer.

Trust god and study his word.

Meditate on it.

It is ultimately God. 

Where is my focus?

Why am I so scared?

Maybe I am longing to just be comfortable.

Whereas, we are to live by faith outside of the comfortable bubble.

But of course that is too scary. 

Am I walking in the Spirit?

Have I lost the path?

I mean obviously there are many paths I follow.

But how am I to feel?

How am I to live life? 

I pray to not judge.

I pray to pray for love among ALL.

For lives to be changed. 

“Walk with the people of God.

Walk with the people of God.

Be in the encouragement of God.”

Hebrews 10:23-25.

I have:

Hope. 

Trust. 

Faith. 

Joy.

But why do I feel confused??

Just Living Life. But what does that mean to me?  

Am I depending on God completely?

I don't truly feel like I am.  

I know I strive for all the truths and promises... But,. 

Am I actually willing to allow God to work through my life?

What is stopping me? 

Why do I feel like this? 

Actually what am I feeling? 

In all these things I pray. AMEN